Background tales for 'Morbid entropic spaces' vol. 1/2

Thought it's time to write about certain events that led to the birth of 'Morbid entropic spaces' album and how the album shaped into what it is, musically and lyrically speaking. This will be a writing with two volumes and this 1st volume tells about one song only. Long writing for just one song, I know, but there are reasons for this.

In late Autumn 2025 I had no inspiration nor idea/vibes to start making new Mood:Doom aka M4D album. I did have one melody/riff idea from May 2025 saved, but that was all. I had pretty much forgotten that May 2025 melody/riff idea, too - simply because I didn't have the vibes for starting to craft new material for M4D. That all changed overnight in turn of November / December 2025. We (me, bro, our mother) got to know that mom's doc estimated that she has about 3 months life left. She had bone cancer which had finally started taking over after being dormant for few years. We knew the end would come in coming years since she was already 90 years old. Superwoman, who only during his last months went physically into poor condition (I mean, she was doing some physical work at countryside still at 90 years old, because she herself wanted to!) ... but the fact was, in early December 2025 that "she would most likely not live to see the Summer of 2026" ... and she didn't.

But in early December 2025 as the news of her death approaching came, there was sadness and sorrow. Naturally. Because there was nothing anyone could do about it, anymore, but to accept that the end is coming. She had lived a long and happy life full of love and events, but you know, death is death. Those who are left behind, mourn. So it goes. But in early December with the news of this situation came, I was talking about the matter in phone with mom (we lived far away from each other, at the other ends of the country). Very directly and openly, both of us. Both talking about it, at times in tears, naturally - but talking openly about it all. About life and death, about things. The first time we talked about the matter in phone, after the call ended ... I didn't plan anything at all, so I was in a very emotional mood and I just picked up one of my guitars (the most reliable one, Gibson SG) and started playing it while thinking about mom's forthcoming death. Right away I came up with two melodies, and I instantly knew that ... they will form a song which will be about my mother's death. Very doomy melodies, so instantly I knew also that this is M4D material. Not just that but the instant I came up with the melodies, I knew that the song title will be Mother Earth's death. And that's what it became as you can easily see by checking out "morbid entropic spaces" album. I also knew that it will be opening track of ... album? It struck me at the same time, that I think this means a musical flow has begun. The song base came out so easily.

Okay, the thing then progressed so that just some days or perhaps a week later after that phone call and beginning of "mother earth's death" tune - I was talking with mom in phone again, about the same matters, life and death. I revealed to her that I'm composing a song about her death, it will be sad, long song, doom metal style. She was touched by what I told but she then went to state, that it's not just sad thing, for me it is not sad to die, I have lived a long happy life, I am ready to leave all this behind too, of course I know it's going to be sad for you and your brother, but please, could you also compose "happy" music for me, not just sad because it's not all sad? I was like ... hmmmm I can try of course, but I can't promise anything, as when and what I compose is ... what comes to me, comes to me, I don't plan what I compose, that's how it has always been. Can you guess what happened next?

Well, again after that phone call I certainly didn't plan anything and I couldn't be further from "composing happy music" mentally - but as it happens, without thinking I picked up guitar again and right away fast riff comes to me. Bling! This is my version of "happy" for her, and I instantly knew that this "happy section" will be short middle section in "mother earth's death" tune ... and yeah, as anyone can see by checking it out, there it is.

I only started recording M4D music in February, even that I had all of "mother earth's death" ready in my mind in December already. I'd say that Christmas and then January were kind of time for letting the creative vibes stew mentally but then as I went and started recording (first demos, soon final recordings) in February, things started happening fast. As it happens, the first song I recorded for the album, was of course "mother earth's death". As this first blog post deals with this song, which I call "the main title song", I won't tell about the other tunes for now. Instead we'll go deeper into the process of "mother earth's death".

So, from the very beginning of how "mother earth's death" came to be, it was very personal and emotional song. Probably the most personal song I've ever done. Sure, I've recorded "musical obituaries" before (for people and even pets) but this was on all different level. Recording the actual music for the song went like a breeze, and actually only this song and "fractured cosmic web" were songs I first recorded as demos. After these two I recorded final takes straight away as the rest songs happened. 

When it comes to "mother earth's death" I knew it will be a song about my mother's death, but lyrically it will be told mostly from cosmic point of view. I also liked how (from cosmic viewpoint) it connects with 2021's album "down to earth" and certain tunes like (as it happens) the opening track "heaving earth". Just that this was going to be so much more personal level song. So, "mother earth's death" was the first song I recorded guitars over quickly programmed drums (which I later finetuned a lot before they turned into final ones). While the recording was quickly done, the same happened with lyrics, kind of. 

I wrote the lyrics at this point very fast but only for all the slow parts. Mother was still alive during all this in the other end of the country. Then all the other songs happened (about which I will write in next post) and fast forward to April ... during Easter mom was more than fine, there was clearly that time when a person who is about to die, experiences brief time when he/she seems to be in excellent condition - even that he/she is not in reality. Sort of "enlightened" moment, if you could call it that. Day or two later mom's condition collapsed and she was taken to hospital. I knew the end is near ... and I was very emotional. I suddenly felt that now is the time, to write the lyrics for "mother earth's death" song's middle section, the happy fast section, ... yeah ... and the lyrics I wrote, I wrote them as I cried like a river. These lyrics which were born through tears, combine real things with cosmic viewpoint and even now that I read them myself, I am still getting emotional. There is also the irony of these far from happy lyrics were written for "happy" section and it gives quite a contrast to it if you ask me. The lyrics from that section:

Starlight fills her final grave

Mother earth has been saved

Her last wishes were so grand

Feel no sorrow just let me go

Starlight fills her former grave

My mother earth has escaped

Her last wishes can be heard

Just let me fly away like a bird

Starlight is her true second name now

One can do nothing else than just bow

She gave me orders of happiness

Doomed mother earth means loneliness

I'm trying to be strong 

Stop me, it hurts so bad, mother ...

So ... at the same time as I wrote the lyrics, I knew that I will not record the vocals for "mother earth's death" yet, but that I will record the vocals only after she no longer walks the earth. At the same time I had vocals recorded for all the other songs. So, the song which started it all, gave birth to this album, was at the same time the very last song I recorded vocals for. 

Just some days later mom passed away in her sleep during the night. And I went and recorded all the vocals for "her song" just some 12-13 hours later. Talk about emotional vocal recording ... At times I was recording the vocals while on the edge of sobbing, almost crying. And there was of course the middle section ("fast, happy moment" mother hoped me to compose) where I knew I'd let the crying out loud kind of ... I decided to record the vocals many times, like 4-5 times, for a sort of twisted choir with different kind of voices out of which one was really high pitched, pained screaming. The pain in the screaming was and is very real.

I can state that this song - Mother Earth's death - is truly a song where I've poured my emotions - literally speaking. Be it the music or be it the lyrics - and even the "performance" (vocals, especially in that fast middle section) ... this song was literally like music therapy for me. And I can also say, that I'm proud that I created this massive musical obituary for my mother. Now not just memories but also this song remains. Oh and also, with all this background trivia you might look at the album's front cover with bit different kind of thoughts. Yes, it's pretty much visual description (from cosmic point of view and doom metal mood mixed in) of this main title song, Mother Earth's death.

mother and me in mid1970s

Next post will be about the other tunes on the album and if you thought this "main title song" was all there was to tell emotionally speaking, ... well you thought wrong.

Instrumental edition of MES

While I was creating 'Morbid entropic spaces' I mentioned at some point, that I've got an idea for crafting slightly different sounding (drums, perhaps) and fully instrumental edit of this album. I've been working on this remix already during past few weeks and it has progressed quite far. Not just the drums might sound bit different but all the vocals, talks, shouts etc that once came out of my throat have been dropped away ... and perhaps bit surprisingly also all the space soundscapes have been dropped away. And the fadeouts the long songs have, are not fadeouts in this edit but long drone'ish ending passages that cut off abruptly (simply because they were originally recorded for fadeout endings) where the recorded guitars / bass end.

Personally I like how this instrumental edit is turning out. It's in a way quite different to the 'Morbid entropic spaces' with full vocals and more bombastic drums, space soundscapes and all that. It's also interesting soundscape edit in the way that you can better hear what's happening with the keyboards in the background - it's not necessarily all that obvious on the album itself, that there are keyboards most the way through. It's much more obvious in this instrumental edit.

I haven't decided yet the release date for this, but I don't think it's coming out right away simply because the actual album just came out and I like to give it all the attention it deserves. I truly like the way it came out. This instrumental edit might come out sometimes like ... late summer perhaps? We'll see.

PS: I will write deep details / background for 'Morbid entropic spaces' sometimes in the summer, or perhaps late summer only. After the album has been out there for some months or so. Stuff that gives some strong extra effect to some of those songs.

'Morbid entropic spaces' is released today!

Seems that we've passed through yet another time loophole and look; the release day is here!

You can find 'Morbid entropic spaces' from the most common streaming services (Spotify, Youtube music, Apple music, etc) already and I manually released it also at bandcamp a moment ago.

Enjoy! \m/

Lyrics

As the release date looms ahead, it's already tomorrow ... here are the lyrics for the album.

As you can see, there are quite a bunch of lyrics. And they are all interconnected, in multiple ways. I will write much more and with details about this matter sometimes in the summer as the release has been out there for some time already.

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1. Mother Earth's death

We watch from the freezing dark
Thy pale orbit one silent arc
The all seeing eye has closed its' lid
Beneath the ash her former life is hid
We pulled the tides and warmed up the soil
Now nothing breathes and nothing coils
Floating tomb of cracked grey crust
My mother of earth is reduced to dust

Oh thy mother is dead
The cradle is empty the rivers have bled
Barren stone in the cosmic sea
Bereft of life bereft of me

Golden glow reaches into space
Memories fade away with grace
No children walk no forests breathe
Swirling storms that slowly seethe
We saw the birth the molten fire
Now we see the end her funeral pyre
Galaxy turns silent and cold
Mourning thy mother earth's death

Oh thy mother is dead
The cradle is empty the rivers have bled
Barren stone in the cosmic sea
Bereft of life bereft of me

No more blue
Even less green
Red is the sunset 
Leading me into my sleep

We orbit a ghost
We circle a memory
Lost in the last
Rays of eternity

No longer blue
Vanishing all green
Red is fading
Making me sleep

We orbit a ghost
We circle a memory
Lost in the last 
Rays of eternity

No blue
No green
No red at all
Dormancy?       

Starlight fills her final grave
Mother earth has been saved
Her last wishes were so grand
Feel no sorrow just let me go

Starlight fills her former grave
My mother earth has escaped
Her last wishes can be heard

Just let me fly away like a bird

Starlight is her true second name now
One can do nothing else than just bow
She gave me orders of happiness
Doomed mother earth means loneliness

I'm trying to be strong 
Stop me, it hurts so bad, mother ...

We watch from the freezing dark
Thy pale orbit one silent arc
All seeing eye has closed its' lid
Beneath the ash her former life is hid
We pulled the tides and warmed up the soil
Now nothing breathes and nothing coils
Floating tomb of cracked grey crust
My mother of earth reduced to dust

Oh thy mother is dead
The cradle is empty the rivers have bled
Barren stone in the cosmic sea
Bereft of life bereft of me

Golden glow reaches into space
Memories fade away with grace
No children walk no forests breathe
Swirling storms that slowly seethe
We saw the birth the molten fire
Now we see the end her funeral pyre
Even the galaxy turns silent and cold
Mourning thy mother earth's death

Oh thy mother is dead
Her grave is empty and I have bled
Barren stone in the cosmic sea
Bereft of life bereft of me

No more blue
Even less green
Red is the sunset 
leading me into forever sleep

Dormancy ...

2. Fractured cosmic web

Filaments of baryonic dust
Strung across the cold dark crust
A neural lace of billion years
Drenched in the stream of ancient spheres
Cold dark matter holds the weight
Of every star and every soul's fate
But the tension snaps in the Great Repel
As we spiral down this gravity well

The cosmic web is tearing at the seams
From fractured patterns into broken dreams
Dark energy breathes inside as the expansion slowly grows
Order falls in silent rows
Behold the loom of grand architect’s lie
Where the threads of light go out to die

Entropic decay is the only law
Fractal ghost in a frozen jaw
The nodes are cold
The lattice breaks
The Great Attractor finally wakes

Through the black wall we try to peer
At the geometry of this cosmic fear
Red-shift screams from the furthest node
The vast universe unspools its code
Void-space hungry void-space wide
There is no place for the stars to hide
Superclusters drift into the grey
As the unseen constant rips the wave

The cosmic web is tearing at the seams
From fractured patterns into broken dreams
Dark energy breathes inside as the expansion slowly grows
Order falls in silent rows
Behold the loom of grand architect’s lie
Where the threads of light go out to die

Entropic decay is the only law
A fractal ghost in a frozen jaw
The nodes are cold
The lattice breaks
The Great Attractor finally wakes

Accelerate! Accelerate! Accelerate!

Into the maw of a lonely fate
The filaments snap
The light goes black
There is no road no turning back
Fractured cosmic web
Fractured human soul

Accelerate! Accelerate! Accelerate!

Into the maw of a lonely fate
The filaments snap
The light goes black
There is no road no turning back
Fractured cosmic web
Fractured human soul

Accelerate! Accelerate! Accelerate!

Entropic decay is the only law
A fractal ghost in a frozen jaw
The nodes are cold
The lattice breaks
The Great Attractor finally wakes

The Great Attractor 
The Great Attractor 
The Great Attractor 
Takes the final toll

The Great Attractor 
The Great Attractor 
The Great Attractor 
Takes the final toll

Accelerate! Accelerate! Accelerate!



3. The beginning of delicacies

Atmosphere thins like a veil of silk
Under the skies with the color of dark green
Something has breached their magnetopause
A hunger that functions without any laws
We are the garnish the first bitter taste
A planet of protein all gone to waste
The morbid twitch of a dying sphere
As the shadow of the Great Maw draws near

Welcome to the beginning of delicacies
Savor the terror of thousand degrees
See the galaxy served on a platter of glass
Watching the soul of the universe pass
Harvest the light savor the scream
Drowning in the gullet of a celestial dream
Feast for the ancient a meal for the void
Black hole buffet of a world destroyed

The table is set with the bones of red moon
Stirring the oceans with a gravity spoon
A morbid digestion has finally begun
Chewing the core of their own shivering sun
No one remains to witness the event
Feel the cold empty stomach all bent
The end of the beginning has not started yet

This is the beginning of the delicacies

Welcome to set of delicacies
Savor the terror of news to me
Galaxies built into invisible glass
Watching the mold of universe pass



4. Reset the Morbid Terminus

The Hubble flow has turned to rage
The final ink on this cosmic page
Dark energy a phantom force
Deviating from the ancient course
The superclusters slowly drift away
Into a deeper darker shade of grey
The tension in the vacuum just grows
As the chaos falls in these silent rows

The stars are flickering like dying lamps
Across the cold primordial ruins
Beyond the Schwarzschild radius rim
The light of the universe grows so very dim
Invisible fractures in the nebulae
Existence is just a closing door
We wait for the morbid snap of time
The end of the rhythm the end of the rhyme
 
We approach the Morbid Terminus
This is the void that will consume all of us
A static wall of infinite black
With no horizon leading us back

The cosmic flow has turned to rage
The final ink on our earth's page
Dark energy mixed into phantom force
Devastating what was ancient course
The galactic filaments drift away
Into a deeper darker shade of grey
The tension of all existence grows
As peace breaks these silent rows

The stars are flickering like dying lamps
Across the cold primordial ruins
Beyond the known Schwarzschild radius rim
The light of the known universe grows so dim
invisible fractures in the nebulae
Existence is nothing but a closing door
We wait for the morbid snap of time
The end of the rhythm the end of the rhyme

The scale is grand the end is near
This is the culmination of cosmic fear
One universe of shattered glass
Watching the light of the aeons pass

Reaching the very brink of the zero-point field
The secrets of the lattice are finally revealed
A flicker in the dark a gigantic quantum spark
The laws of decay lose their jagged mark
A signature written in the fundamental code
A  bypass found on the last terminal road
Entropy reverses its' lethal flow
We watch the trail of the doomsday go
 
Reset the Morbid Terminus
Let the stars return to comfort us
The expansion slows the threads rebind
The ultimate salvation of the cosmic mind
Gravity heals the fractured cosmic web
As the tides of the void begin to ebb
The Great Rip mends as the atoms hold
New story of light about to be told

We are watching the Morbid Terminus
This is the void that almost consumed us
Terminus has lost the war
The universe slowly breathes on
Rescued from the deep
Awakened from my sleep
Infinite is my space
Reset it all with grace



5. The post-entropic light singularity

The clock of the stars has ceased its chime
I’ve reached the final border of space and time
A universe frozen a dead dark sea
Maximized chaos total entropy
At the heart of this absolute cold
A subatomic secret begins to unfold
A focus of photons a density of sight
The gathering spark of the ultimate light

The singularity screams as the new dawn breaks
A post-entropic consciousness finally awakes

No more decay no more slow rot
We are the fire the vacuum forgot
Luminous waves in a structured dance
Beyond the reach of entropic chance
The void is filled the darkness is gone
In the light of the singularity we carry on

Post-entropic light singularity

The clock of the stars has ceased its chime
I’ve reached the final border of space and time
No more decay no more slow rot
We are the fire the vacuum forgot
But at the heart of this absolute cold
A subatomic secret begins to unfold
The void is filled the darkness is gone
In the light of the singularity I carry on

Behold the post-entropic light singularity
A new definition of cosmic reality
The vacuum is ignited the darkness is flayed
A kingdom of brilliance that will never fade
Beyond the horizon where the old laws died
We ride the wake of the luminous tide

Post-entropic light singularity
Carry us on



6. At the edge of outer expanse

The sensors go blind in the absolute hush
Beyond the reach of the starlight’s rush
We’ve sailed the lattice of the known
To find the edge of the master’s throne
No more galaxies no more dust
Just a thinning of the cosmic crust
The parallax fails the math dissolves
As the iron heart of the ship revolves

The edge is hungry      
The edge is wide
It’s pulling the gravity from inside
The vacuum is tearing
The hull begins to groan
We enter the zone
of the Great Unknown

What lies ahead is a geometric scar
Place where there is no "near" or "far"
Not a wall of stone but a fold in the galactic eyes
Where all the laws of physics will just go and die 
A shimmering fear of non-space foam
The jagged wall of the great ancients' home
We stare through the glass at the Great Outside
With nowhere left for our souls to hide
We have sailed the lattice of the known
To find the edge of the master’s throne
Great pillars of logic cracked and grey
Those are the blueprints of our old Milky Way
We see the machinery behind all this dark
The cooling embers of the primal spark

The edge is hungry      
The edge is wide
It’s pulling the gravity from inside
The vacuum is tearing
The hull begins to groan
We enter the zone
of the Great Unknown

We are at the edge of outer expanse
We watch the ghost of the universe dance
Eerie glow from the shoreless sea
The terrifying face of infinity
Mysterious structures unformed and raw
Sight that breaks our minds like thaw
We are the first to behold the rim
Where the light of the Mother Earth grows cold and dim

Cover artwork(s)

I'll write later more about the background of this album in length, and how it connects with the front cover - it might not be that obvious, but there is a certain connection. You might guess some of it, but not all of it. Anyway, now is not the time to write in length, I'll do that only later in forthcoming months - for now I'll concentrate into spilling the coverart work here.

Personally I think I like the front cover artwork of 'Morbid entropic spaces' more than I've liked any of the previous releases' front covers. Don't get me wrong, I do like those too - sure, I've done em myself ... but this time the connection with music and the certain kind of theme going on with the album and how it connects with front cover makes it special for me personally. And intentionally the cover artwork is not based on real pictures but it's more like a painting. 

Here goes.

front cover

back cover (of CD jewel case)

Full album stream

Check out the full album stream (with lyrics synced to music) <here> in Youtube.

Or as usual, check it out below.

Visual full album stream under work

I started working on visual full album stream, with lyrics included / synced, too. It means a lot of work of course, especially considering the amount of lyrics (a lot) and syncing them, and ... so on. I've also crafted kind of humorous (some might say it's black or should I say entropic humor) "advertisement clips" here and there between the songs as an extra effect, and some tune or two might have some extra graphic elements to it. But overall, it's rather simple full album stream. Much less effects and stuff, compared to the videos I usually do.

Considering it's only 5 days to the release date (26th May), this full album stream might appear just some days prior to actual release, into Youtube. But that's just fine. If all goes well, there is possibility that it might appear there within a day (or two) already. I'll let you know when it happens.